About Lena Chen - My Journey with EFT

4th June 2008

Today is the last chance in the past life regression training course that I get to play the client role. I’m nervous because the previous two sessions where I was client were nothing spectacular and I wondered if they were my imagination. In fact, I have had 1 past life regression session with an actual therapist about a year ago and it was very hard for me to enter a past life, and when I did, the information was so vague and jumbled up that I wasn’t very sure what it was all about and if I was just making up a story as I felt pressured to answer the therapist’s questions. (On hindsight, I realized I was having too many expectations for those sessions and didn’t allow myself to go with the flow. I also expected the past life to come in the form of a movie, until I learnt from Andy Tomlinson that the majority of people do not experience it as such. Many people don’t even get images but just a sense of knowing about what is happening, so to disregard the information coming in because it is not coming in the form that is expected is definitely going to sabotage the session.)

I was experiencing some tightness and pain in my throat this morning and I am wondering if it has anything to do with the session that is about to happen. I do my best to push all expectations and doubts aside and psyche myself to go with the flow, keeping my mind open to anything and everything that might happen.

As my therapist asks me to find a past life that is most relevant to me in this life, I start to get flickers of information. Momentarily, I start tensing, worrying about which piece of information to focus on and whether I will get it wrong. Then I remind my conscious mind to relax and just stay in the background, and as that voice quietens down, I begin to get more flashes of images. Shoes, long grass, a little girl kneeling in the grass and quietly playing with it… is that little girl me?

I slowly start to make connections between the bits and pieces of images that are coming through and as I tell my therapist what I see, the story becomes clearer. In that life, my mother was some kind of healer and she taught me how to use herbs for healing. We were very close and she would take me along with her as she visited those who were sick to concoct herbal medicine for them. One day, when we were at someone’s house, some men came to the door, and I saw her getting beaten up by them. They thought she was a witch and it seemed like she was killed by them. I was spared, because I was so young and they thought I would grow up to be “like one of them” so I was taken to a family where I was treated like a slave, in return for them having to take “the daughter of a witch” in.

When I grew up, I managed to leave the family and went to live in the woods on my own, away from the villagers who still thought I was a witch and were scared of me. Nevertheless, some still came to seek my help for sick family members. While some were grateful for my help, they remained in fear and avoided contact with me. I was essentially quite lonely, even though I enjoyed being close to nature.

One day a few men came knocking on the door accusing me of killing one of the children I had treated, who didn’t survive his illness. They dragged me to the marketplace where there was a huge crowd of people who were angry and wanted to see me hanged, and that was the end of that life.

I am surprised that the sensation of being hanged came at the time of the hanging of that life, and the very minute the therapist does some therapy work on my neck, the pressure at my throat vanishes. I am even more surprised at how intense the emotions are at the time when I was facing the angry crowd at the hanging area. I was angry at the unfairness of the situation, and I blamed them for my mother’s death. When my therapist asks me to go to the spirit world to meet my mother, it is also a tearful reunion and once again I am surprised that the tears come out so spontaneously.

That session is more convincing to me than previous ones because of the intensity of the emotions and the very real sensations of being tied up and hanged (which are not that uncomfortable since it only lasts for a few moments). Also, I recognise some of the characters from that past lives to be people I know in this life, and interestingly, there were also similar incidents involving them in this life where I was accused of doing things wrongly as those actions were unacceptable to them, and as a result, was made to feel guilty and shameful. I also see parallels between this life and that life such as often feeling like an outsider and being different from others, especially when I was young, and hence often chose to be by myself in nature. I am also especially sensitive to being misunderstood. Most people would not like to be misunderstood but whenever it happens in my life, which also seem to occur persistently throughout life, I would feel extremely upset and find it very hard to let go of it.

Also, I have this phobia of things around my neck and unfortunately, my son likes to play “let’s strangle Mummy!” Now that I know that I have been hanged before in a past life, it makes so much sense now. This evening, I tell my husband all about it and he is amazed at all the parallels. He even reminds me of a recent incident involving the same people from that past life who are with me in this life, which almost seems like a replay of that life – the confrontation, accusations, rejections – thank goodness it does not lead to anybody being hanged!

Right after the session, my sore throat miraculously disappears which makes me even more convinced that this is a real past life and I’m glad that it explains many of my negative thought patterns which I previously take for granted to be just part of who I am and would be the case for the rest of my life.

16 December 2008

It is 6 months since that session and it seems like I am no longer so sensitive to having things around my neck. My son still likes to play “let’s strangle Mummy” every once in a while, and I am much more tolerant of it now, though I still prefer other kinds of games! More significantly, it seems like I am no longer so sensitive to being misunderstood. In fact, there have been other occasions since then where I have been misunderstood, and whereas in the past I might have felt very angry and frustrated about it, now I get upset for a while and then simply shrug it off and let it go. It is not something that happens consciously, and I guess even though the past life regression session brought that past life into my conscious awareness, the healing occurred on an subconscious level and took place automatically without my need to control or manage it in any way.

I have had another amazing past life regression session since then, but that is a story I would probably leave to another time. Perhaps if we ever get to meet, I would tell you all about it!